A very honest and vulnerable statement from me.
My friends, so many of us are hurting because of Friday's insanity, for one of many reasons. We have little ones that were hard to let go of this morning. We are teachers and had to face today with less than a sense of safety in our classrooms. We are moms and dads who can't imagine the pain those parents are feeling. And many, many other reasons.
Most importantly I'll gently ask you to pray. Even if it's been a while. Or a really, really long while. Or you never have before. Or you're not sure any"one" is there. Tell God that you are angry and sad and don't understand. God wants us to bring it all to God. Get it out. Do not keep this hurt inside. I can tell you from personal experience, God is the only way I have gotten over some very difficult things in my life. I tried to handle it myself. It didn't go well (at all) till I realized I had no other choice but to ask for God's help. And the help came. And I got (am getting) over it. Pray. God's there.
Also, we are meant to live in community. Talk frankly with at least one person about your hurt, Do not let it ruminate inside. I am generally not one to lay it all out on the table. It quite frankly scares me to be so vulnerable. But I had a good "chat" (yes, texting counts) with a friend and I really do feel better. Be vulnerable with at least one person that you trust.
And it's ok to cry.
Hugs and love,